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The Value of Resolution
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Bhaavadeva, listening to this conversation, grew bewildered and repulsed. Indignantly he exclaimed, “How degraded you are! Who would eat vomit like that! Your son ate it and you appreciate it in such a way.”
Hearing this rebuke by Bhaavadeva, Naagala roared like a lioness: “Monk! This child ate vomit, but he was ignorant. Think about yourself! Are you any better? You left the worldly pleasures and carnal desires which were like this vomit that so excites your disgust, and yet now you want to eat the same vomit! You have read Agamas, undertaken austerities and hard way of life, and now you are giving up your attainments. You should look before you leap! The serpent leaves his upper skin and never turns back to see it. Look at me. You are behaving like a mad person for Naagala who is standing before you.
“I want to make this point clear: I will not indulge in worldly love. I can respect you as a monk, but I cannot accept you as my husband. You are ready to break your vow but I am firm. No attraction can change my ideas. It would be better for you to go to the forest and perform penance. I hope that you will attain the same path which your elder brother had adopted.”
The words of Naagala sparked something within him. He was suddenly awakened. He felt as if he had been given a light to see through the darkness. He thanked. Naagala, left the town and returned to the forest to accomplish his sadhana and attain the desired goal.
