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ABUNDANT JOY OF SENTIMENTS
My strength, skills, reach, and needs ~ Do not continue to test all these. You come down from the summit of freedom, leaving all hesitancy, you manifesr yourself completely in the temple of my mind.
Your silence without any indications, creates more and more worries, more and more remorse. Your secret non-appearance also daily creates deep confusions and worries. Your separation makes me more and more anxiously eager. I am getting sawed between the doubts and the faith. I just cannot bear this condition any more. "Whether you are there or not?" In its witness-debate or evidence ljust do not have any interest, whatsoever. Only you, yourself give me an experience of your being by your appearance-only that is my request. My eyes have pain after waiting for so long. My tongue has gone dry by continuously shouting for you. My hands and a pen are extremely tired after constant writing. My mind is withered remembering you. My fingers are tired by counting beads in repeating your name. My feet have no strength left to stand after running here and there to search you. But now atleast you also should understand somewhat. You also should understand meanings of emotions-feelings - devotion.
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