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ABUNDANT JOY OF SENTIMENTS
You also think of your duty of replying at sometime. I do not want to be devoid of my right. But you also see that you do not fail in your duty; as if you do not hear anything. I just do not know whether I am talking to you or to a stone ? Should not one get response, reaction to his feelings ? How such dictatorship could be tolerated ? I make love to you and I also make quarrels with you; and I also do mischief with you. And also by getting you angry I also do wonders Isn't it ? | get you angry, harras you; that is also for pleasing you. | also reprimand you; that is also one kind of feelings towards you. Otherwise in every drop of my blood your name is mingled. Your name sharply carved does not allow me to rest. And therefore, without worshipping you, there in no mental peace to me. From the word of my worship as soon as I move, you enter. And therefore I call it worship. Otherwise it will become begging. Once when I got entry in your royal court, my appearance is changed completely. Not only photograph or fortune; but the total quality is changed. Now there is no good or bad taste of honour-insult of the world. There is no meaning in my slandering or of my listening 'STUTI'.
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