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ABUNDANT JOY OF SENTIMENTS
The moments passed in slandering will have to be balanced by paying for polluted fortune, degenerated values, wicked instincts and sinful acts; I know this fully.
Becoming absolutely shameless and peeping with lust the game of opposite sex will take the dangerous, terifying pain- even of this I am not unaware.
For greed of the tongue and satisfying excited instincts of the mind, the heated sighs of many lives taken will not leave me even after becoming a goat and getting slaughtered by a butcher.
Due to glory of your knowledge I can well understand that someone's curse as a result of cruelty towards him will make me ruined, unconscious and disgraceful.
The misuse of the strength derived for your service adorationdevotion would not bring which undesirable condition is the real question.
How shall I worship you in that condition?
I have forgotten you even in favourable circumstances of power and conveniences; then in adverse circumstances of weaknesses and inconveniences, in worshipping, devoting, in righteous feelings and singing devotional songs how shall I be able to keep my mind fresh, joyful, free and pure?
If my helplessness goes to this extent would you like it? Will you make me so helpless? Crossing all limits?
I am dwarfish and you are Supreme.
Yes, at the peak of the summit!
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