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ABUNDANT JOY OF SENTIMENTS
:39: NOT ONLY YOU, I AM ALSO
DISGUSTED
Oh, Ocean of equenamity ! How abnormal and peculair am I? I have been shouting 'where are you? There is simply a habit of talking. I have put in cotton plugs in my ears and I expect your reply. With my own hands I have hit an axe on my foot and then I am crying aloud. Though I know terrifying nature of the results, I just cannot leave temptation of actions. After taking poisonous drinking of lust I want to become immortal. I have been creating on my own, serpents of the lust. I want to become virtuous without evils. I create ego, false pride and I make a hollow prayer to you for dispersal. I have been craving to you to reduce my evils but I keep my favourable sweet sight upon evils! Itching of lust, greed and thirst from within I feel quite sweet. Even before you I feel shy in accepting my guilt consciousness. Fulfilling my thirst I blame your speech and water. By taking something to satisfy my hunger I see evil in your dish of delicacies, of 'SADHANA'.
You are ready to give your hand, but I do not want to open my
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