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Glimpses of Sentiments
Sometimes I got weak body yet I did not observe celibacy. You gave me a very fine creativity but I did not cultivate it with pious feelings. In getting old while commiting sins, the old age came but I continued to commit sins. You gave me obliging, religious mother- father but I did not become cultured one because of that. You sent to me well-wishing friends but I just could not turn on the pious path of self- realisation. You gave me eloquent speech but I could not praise virtues or noble deeds; I could not enter into religious - spiritual discussions or dialogues. Although you gave me power, I could not do anything for others and just could not gain goodwishes of others. You did give me true knowledge; but I did not give any good advice to anyone. Although I had a house, I did not give shelter to anyone. Though I was having adequate food, I did not give even a dry roti to anyone. Although I had warmth of the family, I never gave any affection or consolation to anyone. Despite company of 'SADHARMIK'I did not perform 'SADHANA'; I did not give any kind of support. Despite affluence of wealth I did not help suffering 'SADHARMIK, diseased one, hungry animals. I did not take their care. Although I had ten times more clothes than required by me, I did not give any clothes even to a single naked person. In my garden under the well-spread Banyan tree, I did not allow anyone to take rest.
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