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once told me, 'Parshvanath and our 22 Sraman gurus before him had succeeded in doing so by sadhana. I must too'!
Venerated Swami, Vardhaman's anxiety for discovering the Reality was so intense that he would hardly eat or sleep for days. The No one seems to have understood the Reality. Why else would there be so many scriptures, and such different versions of Reality peddled by those who claim to have the only and the absolute truth?
physical demands of the body could not impede his resolve. In fact, his body itself had become his partner in this quest. His body was no longer sensitive to pain or pleasure. As you know well, the path of sadhana involves many battles, but the first is always with the sadhak's own body. Vardhaman had already won this battle.
My brother was politely waiting for my permission, and I could no longer stop him from leaving home for sadhana. I said to him, 'Dear Vardhaman, you are in search of truth, but obviously no one else can ever show you Reality. You must discover it by yourself! Do so, and you can bring peace to all of humanity. You have my blessings. I will arrange for your ordainment. Let peace be with you, dear brother!' And so, at the age of 30 my little brother was gone!
Most people hesitate to take any decision. Even after careful analysis they are afraid of the unknown and worry that their crazy ideas may spring them into hasty action. They brood upon the difficulties they might encounter, problems they might face, the effect of their decision on the self and the others, and try to weigh all the consequences.
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