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Then some so-called monks attacked and killed four policemen, and in retaliation, four so-called monks were killed, "But", I asked myself, "How is this possible? No Jain monk can kill. It is totally against his religion and vows."
Then one of these so-called monks came to the platform and demanded that I give him the microphone. I told him "No, this is the fault of your monks. The police are peaceful. They do not want trouble. Your people have started the riot."
Shortly afterwards, the wire to the microphone was cut and three tear gas bombs were thrown onto the speaker's platform. Then complete chaos and pandemonium broke loose and I lost control over the situation. People were running everywhere to get away and some were fighting with each other. The peace rally ended in a riot and it was reported in the newspapers the next day that eight people had been killed when I knew, for a fact, that hundreds were killed.
Two days after I went into seclusion and a total fast to clean myself of any wrongdoing. I felt guilt. I felt extreme sadness. I felt pain. But then I thought: I did not want any violence. How could I be responsible for what happened?
In a meditation, the answer appeared to me from the divine Self: "You cannot fight fire with fire otherwise the fire will destroy you in the end." The meaning is that when
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