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I decided that I could not keep my desire a secret anymore, and I asked a friend where I could find the memorial place. I also told him all about my experience with Babaji. My friend agreed to take me to Jagraon City, where he thought the memorial was to be found, but when we reached Jagraon, we could not find it.
Nearby, we saw some farmers who were irrigating their land and we asked one of them if he knew where the memorial was. The farmer said that he did and that he would take us there. Along the way, I became very involved in a discussion with the farmer about idol worship. By the time we reached the memorial place of Babaji, my thoughts, speech and feelings were so concentrated upon the conversation with the farmer, that I completely forgot why I had journeyed there in the first place!
At two o'clock in the morning, I suddenly awoke and remembered why I had come to Jagraon and realized that I had actually seen the stone earlier in the day! My feelings of pain, sadness and stupidity were almost more than I could bear. I could not sleep from thinking that I had actually seen the stone and yet failed to recognize it. In my memory of the previous day, the black stone was unmistakably present at the memorial-just as Babaji had told me it would be. I remembered when I went to bow my head in reverence to the feet marks of Babaji on the memorial, a black stone was lying between the feet
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