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The Flame in the Candle 65 we have something constantly moving upward. We can call it the flame. We have another something melting downward. It is the wax. These two have their own distinct natures.
What is moving upward? It is our longing to find something pure and beautiful, something high and noble, something subtle and divine. Each one of us has this quest. That is why we are called aspirants, or sadhaka, meaning not complacent. We want each step to find us farther than the last.
The dream you had ten years ago may have been realized by now. You find that you want something more. You want to go further. This "more" is the nature of that upward-moving element. Wherever you go and whatever you receive, that "more" is there. It will remain till the last, till you reach the best. You have not reached the height yet; that is why that longing is there.
So meditate on suchi and ask yourself, “What is moving upward in me? What is the pure, unique essence of life? Let me not confuse that with other elements which are composing and decomposing.'
Investigate, “What is the quality of my thoughts and emotions? What is the frequency of my vibrations? Are they lifting me up or taking me down? Are they increasing the heaviness in me, or are they focused on revealing my light?”
It is very important to have a sense of discrimination to differentiate between these two. Without this discriminating sense, we run the risk of identifying our pure essence with the matter-laden coverings weighing it down. Without the light of awareness, the mind deludes us. That is the influence of the hypnotic spell. We allow ourselves to live without the experience of who we really are. This is self-deception. There is no outside deceiver who can fool you more than your own inaccurate think