________________ 578 STUDIES IN JAIN LITERATURE 32. 31. My dear, why should these oblong eyes of yours be pouring forth tears tinged with the pigment of your thin collyrium in such a profuse flow ? O, slender-waisted girl, why do you sit and mope like this, the floral decorations of your ears are crushed, your lustrous lower lip is all blanched by the breath of your mouth and the paintings on your cheek done with fragrant and colourful material are transferred on the palms of your hands? 33. Why is it that what you want to say remains unsaid ? It only moves around inside your mouth, doesn't even get an indistinct utterance though it comes again and again upto your lips and sets them quivering. 34. O, my dear, although my love for you is unbroken (or uninterrupted, the same all along) although I haven't given you any cause for anger, although I have done nothing unworthy or bad, still there has been a scandal which caused your displeasure with me (or your anger for me.) 35. You have not examined the position carefully nor have you shown any consideration for mutual trust which has grown over the years. You have been causing me pain. 36. You may take your own time over it, you may not give up your angry feelings against me, but please tell me in clear terms whether you think I would be guilty of any such lapse, disregarding this (our deep love) ? 37. The course of love is indeed uncertain : if it moves ahead boldly, it is restrained and pushed back and vice versa. Is there any point in being resentful ? One doesn't really know what to do with such a mood (or feeling). Such thoughts quite perplex the minds of women. 38. The eyes of the disillusioned young wife looked for a while painfully at her rival in love with whom her husband had seriously misbehaved, and finally settled on her friend. 39. I have put up with all the humiliation, I know of my rival's interest in the offences done to me and I patiently bore the pangs of separation from you. Now why should you feel bad about it ? Really speaking it should be me to feel so. 40. The dear one as well as his love who (which) has committed an unbearable offence (against the other party), who (which) in spite of the serious offence is inclined to appease (the other party) and who (which, proceeded in a self-willed manner (while committing the offence) are both of them [i. Jain Education International For Private & Personal Use Only www.jainelibrary.org