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Transforming
Munishree Chandraprabh Sāgarji had become best friends with his mind. Gone were the days when his mind had bred one desire after another. Now he knew how, with watchfulness and inner guidance, to turn his mind into an obedient servant rather than a demanding master. Little by little, he had come to stretch the mind and expand himself.
Mind likes to contract the infinite, but I am here to expand the finite and reach the infinite.
After having enlightened his sorrow and penetrated the secret of death, what he found was life. He saw that tears shed for one's small self waste energy and gravitate the mind. So long as he had felt lack, so long he had felt imperfect, incomplete. Along with that were sown the seeds of pain and discontent, either putting oneself down or up, or indulging in criticism of others. The height of peace he experienced gave him the certainty that never again would he suffer from selfish demand. There was no joy in fighting to get or gain something; on the contrary, joy, he found, was in giving. His purpose began to unfold - to help someone in need, to awaken a slumbering consciousness, to share his thoughts, to lift a helpless creature from pain, to work for life. Now he sang to himself, “I live for life, for other, for Thee, O Beloved Higher Self!"
Five years after taking the vows of a monk, he was experiencing the essential meaning of the Sanskrit word for monk, muni. Muni carries a deep meaning - one who is inspired or ecstatic, a sage, a seer, one who has renounced the outer world to ruminate and contemplate his inner reality. This is where the monkhood led our muni, into spiritual ecstasy with which to inspire himself and others.
Excavating his depths, he came to the core of his being. He found himself, his life. Though a man is not his name, now he
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