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your mind's desire for ephemeral things. When you know the difference, you will be governor of yourself.”
“But when I sit, my memories bring me pain. This pain in my heart makes me want to jump up and run away. At times I cannot bear it."
“Sooner or later we have to face our thoughts. Why postpone?”
“Are you telling me that when I really feel pain, I should go into the root of the pain and stop avoiding the pain?”
“Yes, dear soul, it will bring out your real inner color, the color of your heart. You came to this path moist with feeling. From here your quest began. Don't run away from it.”
Munishree was moved. Together they sat in silence. He remembered what Acharya Anand Sāgarsuriji had told him the first time they met: “These events have given birth to your quest. You can turn them into fertilizer for your growth." Munishree understood more clearly that he now had a choice. He could look upon his pain as a stumbling block or as a help.
“Yes,” his teacher answered his silent pondering. “You can turn this knowledge into experience. Now you have emotional upsurge, fluctuations of mood, and fantasies of mind. It is your experience. There is no need to deny it. Accept all the weaknesses for the time being. Don't suppress anything. In meditation, three things may come: fear, anarchy, and temptation. You stay with So-aham, in your center. 'I am Divine, I am Truth. I am Love.' If you identify with the past fear, you are dwelling with that. Instead bid it farewell. If you leave your stand in the present, you can be thrown off balance. Then you will cling to straws. Only watch the waves and remember that what you want is a state of no ripples. Then you will be able to see to the bottom of your consciousness.'
“But when I watch, I become nervous, restless, and impatient.“
“This week take time only for relaxation of the body. Whenever you have a chance, do favasana, the corpse pose, and practice letting go. Whenever the muscles contract, let them go. One by one, relax each part of the body. You take deep breaths. Let the breaths come into a rhythm. You will see, when you relax from head to toe, you will start feeling
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| SR No. | 001808 |
| Book Title | Chitrabhanu Man with Vision |
| Original Sutra Author | N/A |
| Author | Clare Rosenfield |
| Publisher | Jain Meditation International Centre New York |
| Publication Year | |
| Total Pages | 326 |
| Language | English |
| Classification | Book_English & Biography |
| File Size | 24 MB |