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852. Then, with his face slightly turned up with eyes steady and
languid, he at once put his hand that was perspiring and
with fingers spread apart on my breast. 853. Embracing me closely he sat down there again and kissed
me on my face, my eyes and my cheeks. 854. Thus, muttering coaxing words in an unabashed manner
(gradually) be removed all bashfulness from my heart and
also ended my maidenhood ! 855. Beyond this I do not know anything that I can describe
: to you in words; my heart alone knows however' much it tip is, it cannot forget. 856. And then, awakened by the sound of morning drums being ... beaten, when I glanced at my bed, I do not know where
he had gone. 857. Since that day, my dear friend, remembering that dream, I
am thirsting for that happiness in reality and my anxiety
grows. 858. Like fire burning inside a dried up (hollow) tree, passion
burns within my heart fanned by the breeze of my anxiety. 859. So neither in bed nor on the floor, nor again in the house
nor outside, neither by daytime nor at night is my body
getting any comfort whatsoever. 860. These pleasantries that you have uttered again have all
become adverse in my case now. 861. What is the use of speaking much again before you, my
friend, you know what is in my heart and my intentions. 862. If he does not come here and if father also does not send
me there, then, bearing the unbearable, I will not find any solace in death also.”
. 863. Hearing all this for a long time, good lady, I said, “Even
then you are hiding such an attachment for such an excellent man !
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