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forming the daily duties, he should make his best study. At the proper time, purified by thinking of gods and gurus, he should take a little sleep, generally avoiding incontinence. At the end of sleep he should think of the true nature of women's bodies, reflecting on their abandonment by the noble munis. He should think : Women, charming outside, are filled with liver, blood, impurities, phlegm, marrow, and bone, bags of skin sewed together with sinews. If there should be an exchange of the exterior and interior of a woman's body, its lover should afford protection from vultures and jackals. If Love wishes to conquer the world with woman as a weapon, why does not he, foolish, take a small feather as a weapon! Oh! Oh! the world is deceived by Sankalpayoni (Kāma). Therefore, I shall dig up the root of desire for him.' Whatever injurious fault may exist, he should meditate on an antidote for it, attaining joy among monks free from faults.
Reflecting with perseverance on the miserable condition of existence of all creatures, he should look for emancipation, which is the source of natural bliss, for them. Who, whose mind is unconfused, would not trust to laymanship where there are the Jina, god, compassion, religion, gurus and sādhus ? May I not become a cakravartin, deprived of the religion of the Jina. May I be even a slave, even poor, possessed by the religion of the Jina. When shall I resort to the practices of the monks, all association abandoned, wearing old clothes, the body wet from impurities, following the habits of the bee? 218 Abandoning evil association, touching the dust of the guru's feet, when shall I, practicing meditation, be able to cut off existence? When will the bulls rub their shoulders against me like a pillar when I am practicing käyotsarga outside the city at midnight? When will the old leaders of the herds of deer snuffle
212 89. Taking alms like a bee. See I, n. 94.
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