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you have experienced this separation from relatives and the killing of your father because of that sin. Verily, a stain on religion, even though small, causes endless pain. Even a little poison, which has been swallowed, is sufficient to destroy life. You must not act so again that such a thing will happen again, but right-belief free of the five faults 811 must be adopted."
CHAPTER TWO
Then Kanakaśrī, at once feeling quick disgust with existence, declared to Cakradhārin and Lāngaladhārin:
"If such misfortune is experienced because of even a little sin, enough for me of the pleasures of love, mines for the production of sin. Just as a boat sinks in water from even a small crack, so a person sinks in misfortunes from even a small sin. At that time when I was timid from poverty and was practicing such penance, for some reason there was doubt. Alas for my wretched fate! Now that I have obtained power and am enjoying pleasures, of what importance is a mere doubt since there may be other faults? So be gracious and consent to my taking the vow. I am afraid of this Rākṣasa of existence devoted to such trickery."
With eyes wide-open in astonishment, they said: "From the guru's favor this may take place without hindrance. However, let us go now to the city Subhā, very intelligent lady, that we may make your departurefestival with great magnificence. You should take the vow, which resembles a boat for crossing the ocean of existence, there before the Jina Svayamprabha, sinless lady."
She agreed and after bowing with devotion to the sage they took her and went to the city Subha. In front of it they saw the son Anantasena fighting with men sent for battle by Damitāri. When Sirin saw Anantavirya's son surrounded by them like a boar by dogs, whirling his plow, he ran forward angrily. Damitāri's soldiers ran away in all directions, unable to withstand Bala, like balls of cotton 811 309. See I, n. 119.
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