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________________ pITara jI bIDalara maiM par3hAtA kyoM hU~? tuma adhyApakI kyoM karate ho? mere dosta ne pUchA kyoMki maiMne use batAyA thA ki maiM skUla meM kisI prazAsakIya pada ke lie Avedana nahIM denA caahtaa| isa bAta ne use ulajhana meM DAla diyaa| Akhira maiM usa rAste ko kyoM nahIM apanAnA cAhatA thA jo jAhira hai usa lakSya kI ora le jAtA hai jise saba pAnA cAhate haiM yAni dhana aura adhikaar| maiM isalie nahIM par3hAtA ki par3hAnA mere lie AsAna hai| roTIrojI kamAne ke lie maine bulaDojara kI marammata, bar3haIgIrI, vizvavidyAlaya kA prazAsana aura lekhana Adi jitane bhI kAma kie haiM, par3hAnA unameM sabase muzkila hai| jahA~ taka merA savAla hai, par3hAne se A~kheM lAla ho uThatI haiM, zarIra bejAna aura mana khinna ho jAtA hai| A~kheM isalie lAla ho jAtI haiM kyoMki par3hAne ke lie maiM apane ko kabhI taiyAra nahIM pAtA, cAhe rAta ko maine kitanI bhI dera taka baiThakara taiyArI kyoM na kI ho, hatheliyA~ pasIne se isalie bhIga jAtI haiM kyoMki kakSA meM praveza karane se pahale mujhe hamezA ghabarAhaTa hone lagatI hai| mujhe hamezA lagatA hai ki chAtroM para merI bevakUphI jarUra jAhira ho jaaegii| mana isalie bujha jAtA hai kyoMki eka ghaMTe bAda jaba maiM kakSA se bAhara AtA hU~ to mujhe isa bAta kA nizcaya ho cukA hotA hai ki Aja maiMne chAtroM ko pahale se kahIM jyAdA ubAyA hai| mere par3hAne kI vajaha yaha bhI nahIM hai ki maiM praznoM ke uttara jAnatA hU~, yA yaha ki maiM itanA kucha jAnatA hU~ ki usa jAnakArI ko dUsaroM meM bA~Tane ke lie majabUra ho jAtA huuN| chAtroM ko apanI par3hAI huI bAtoM ke noTa lete dekha kara mujhe sacamuca kabhI-kabhI bar3A Azcarya hotA hai| phira bhI maiM kyoM par3hAtA hU~? maiM isalie par3hAtA hU~ kyoMki jisa DhaMga se par3hAI kA DharrA calatA hai, vaha mujhe pasaMda hai| jaba skUla kI chuTTiyA~ hotI haiM to mujhe ciMtanamanana, anusaMdhAna aura lekhana kA avasara milatA hai- ye saba mere par3hAne ke hI hisse haiN| .maiM isalie par3hAtA hU~ ki yaha parivartana para AdhArita hai| pAThya sAmagrI vahI hote hue bhI mujha meM parivartana AtA hai - aura sabase bar3I bAta yaha hai ki mere chAtroM meM bhI parivartana AtA hai| ___maiM isalie par3hAtA hU~ ki maiM khuda galatI karane, khuda sabaka sIkhane, apane Apa ko aura apane chAtroM ko prerita karane kI svataMtratA ko pasaMda karatA huuN| ___maiM isalie par3hAtA hU~ ki maiM aise prazna karanA pasaMda karatA hU~ jinase chAtroM ko uttara dene meM mehanata karanI pdd'e| saMsAra bure praznoM ke acche uttaroM se bharA par3A hai| adhyApana ke kAraNa kabhI-kabhI mere sAmane acche prazna bhI A jAte haiN| maiM isalie par3hAtA hU~ ki sIkhanA pasaMda karatA huuN| vAstava meM, adhyApaka ke rUpa meM merA astitva tabhI taka hai jaba taka maiM sIkha rahA huuN| mere pezevara jIvana kI eka saba se bar3I khoja yaha hai ki maiM jo jAnanA cAhatA hU~, vaha sabase acchA par3hA sakatA huuN| maiM isalie par3hAtA hU~ ki mujhe isa peze ke svAMga meM apane Apa ko aura apane chAtroM ko isa mithyA saMsAra se bAhara nikAlane aura vAstavika duniyA meM praveza karane ke upAya khojane meM AnaMda AtA hai| maiMne eka bAra eka pAThyakrama calAyA thA jisakA zIrSaka thA : "mazInI samAja meM aatmnirbhrtaa'| mere 15 chAtroM ne emarasana, thoro aura haksale ko pddh'aa| unhoMne DAyariyA~ likhIM, satra ke daurAna laMbe nibaMdha likhe| yahI nahIM, hamane eka kaMpanI kI bhI sthApanA kii| usake lie hamane eka baiMka se RNa liyA, khastA hAlata vAlA eka makAna kharIdA aura usako nayA rUpa dekara Atma-nirbharatA ke siddhAMta ko amalI jAmA phnaayaa| ardhavArSika satra samApta hone para hamane usa makAna ko beca diyA, apanA karjA cukA diyA, apane karoM kA bhugatAna kara diyA aura jo munAphA huA, use kaMpanI ke sadasyoM meM bA~Ta diyaa| nizcaya hI yaha aga. jI kA koI sAmAnya pAThyakrama nahIM thaa| lekina bhAvI vakIla, akAuMTeMTa aura vyavasAyI ke rUpa meM kArya zikSA-eka yazasvI dazaka vidvata khaNDa/77
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________________ karane vAle 15 chAtroM ne acAnaka hI naI dRSTi se thoro kI 'vAlDena' pustaka par3hanI AraMbha kara dii| ve saba jAnate the ki vaha jaMgala meM kyoM gayA, usane apanI jhoMpar3I kaise banAI aura vaha apane anubhava ko itanA acchA kyoM mAnatA thA ki vaha usake bAre meM duniyA ko batalAnA cAhatA thaa| unheM aba yaha bhI mAlUma thA ki aMta meM vaha usa jaMgala ko chor3a kara kyoM calA aayaa| vaha vAlDena tAla ke pAnI kA svAda cakha cukA thaa| aba anya amRta kuMDoM kI ora cala dene kA samaya A gayA thaa| maiM isalie par3hAtA hU~ ki par3hAne se mujhe vibhinna prakAra ke amRta kA svAda cakhane, bahuta se jaMgaloM meM jAne aura phira vahA~ se anyatra cala dene, bahuta sI acchI pustakeM par3hane aura mithyA tathA vAstavika saMsAra ke bahuta se anubhava prApta karane kA avasara milatA hai| adhyApana kArya se maiM barAbara sIkhatA rahatA huuN| yaha kArya mujhe vividhatA, cunautI aura avasara pradAna karatA hai| lekina aba bhI par3hAne ke asalI kAraNa to raha hI ge| __ eka lar3akI hai vikii| vaha merI pahalI chAtrA thI jo DAkTarekTa kara rahI thii| vaha utsAhI yuvatI thI, lekina usakA utsAha akasara maMda bhI par3a jAtA thaa| snAtakottara DigarI ke lie jisa sAhitya kA vaha adhyayana kara rahI thI, usI meM kar3I mehanata ke bAvajUda use koI romAMca anubhava nahIM hotA thaa| lekina usane 14vIM zatAbdI ke eka bahuta hI kama vikhyAta kavi para zodha prabaMdha taiyAra karane meM apanI jAna khapA dii| usane bar3e parizrama se kucha lekha taiyAra kie aura unheM kucha U~cI patrikAoM ko bheja diye| ye saba lekha usane khuda hI likhe the| maiMne to ekAdha bAra TahokA bhara hI diyA thaa| lekina jaba usane apanA zodha pUrA kiyA, usa samaya maiM vahIM thaa| patA calA ki usake ve lekha svIkRta ho gae haiN| use naukarI milane ke sAtha-sAtha hArvarDa vizvavidyAlaya (kaiMbrija, mAsAcuseTsa) se eka aise viSaya meM pustaka likhane ke lie chAtravRtti bhI mila gaI hai| isa pustaka kA vicAra usake mana meM una dinoM hI AyA thA jaba vaha merI chAtrA thii| dUsarA kAraNa hai jaarj| vaha merA sabase acchA chAtra thaa| pahale vaha iMjIniyariMga par3ha rahA thA, para bAda meM usane sAhitya le liyA kyoMki vaha jar3a padArthoM kI tulanA meM logoM ko adhika pasaMda karatA thaa| usane ema. e. kI upAdhi prApta kI aura aba vaha eka juniyara hAI skUla meM aMgarejI kA adhyApaka hai| jIna nAma kI eka anya lar3akI kaoNleja chor3a gaI thii| lekina usake kucha sahapAThI use vApasa le Ae kyoMki ve jIna ko Atmanirbhara-bhavana pariyojanA kA pariNAma dikhAnA cAhate the| jaba vaha vApasa AI to maiM vahIM thaa| usane mujhe batAyA ki usakI zahara ke garIba logoM meM dilacaspI hai| phira vaha par3ha-likhakara nAgarika adhikAroM kI vakIla bana gii| inake alAvA jaikvI- saphAI karane vAlI aurt| usakI khAsa bAta yaha hai ki hamameM se adhikatara loga jitanA vizleSaNa dvArA sIkhate haiM, usase kahIM adhika vaha sahaja jJAna dvArA jAna jAtI hai| jaikvI ne sekaMDarI skUla kI par3hAI pUrI karane ke bAda kaoNleja meM jAne kA nizcaya kiyaa| aise logoM ke kAraNa maiM par3hAne kA kAma karatA huuN| ye loga merI . A~khoM ke sAmane hI rahate-rahate bar3hate haiM aura badalate jAte haiN| adhyApaka hone kA artha hai jaba mATI nae-nae rUpa dhara rahI ho, sRjana ke una kSaNoM meM upasthita rhnaa| janma ke bAda jaba baccA pahalI cIkha mAratA hai, usa kSaNa meM usakA sAkSI hone se bar3hakara aura kucha romAMcakArI nahIM hai| par3hAI ke kSetra se bAhara 'padonnati' se mujhe paisA aura zakti mila sakatI hai, lekina paisA to pahale hI mere pAsa hai| maiM jo kAma karatA hU~ aura jisameM mujhe sabase adhika AnaMda AtA hai, usake lie mujhe paisA milatA hai| yaha kAma hai pustakeM par3hAnA, logoM se bAtacIta karanA, naI-naI khoja karanA aura anaginata prazna krnaa| kevala dhanI hone meM kyA tuka hai? mere pAsa to zakti bhI hai| mujhe TahokA lagAne kA, kisI meM cinagArI jalAne kA, parezAnakuna savAla karane kA, kisI javAba kI tArIpha karane kA, saccAI se mu~ha chipAne para niMdA karane kA, kitAbeM sujhAne aura rAha dikhAne kA adhikAra hai| isake alAvA aura kaunasA adhikAra mAne rakhatA hai? kiMtu adhyApana se dhana aura adhikAra ke alAvA kucha aura bhI milatA hai aura vaha hai pyaar| yaha pyAra kevala jJAna, pustakoM aura vicAroM ke prati pyAra hI nahIM hai balki vaha pyAra bhI hai jo eka adhyApaka ko usa chAtra se hotA hai jo usake jIvana meM kaccI miTTI kI taraha AtA hai aura nae-nae rUpa dharane lagatA hai| zAyada isake lie pyAra zabda sahI nahIM hai, jAdU adhika upayukta hogaa| maiM isalie par3hAtA hU~ ki jo loga sAMsa lenA zurU kara rahe haiM, unake AsapAsa rahate hue kabhI-kabhI mujhe aisA lagatA hai jaise unake sAtha-sAtha maiM bhI nae sire se sAMsa lene lagA huuN| vidvata khaNDa/78 zikSA-eka yazasvI dazaka